Mar
29
1.
生日当晚静静的看着电影吃完同事送的蛋糕. 然后两个人沉默的睡着.
2.
一个住在办公室楼里的女人. 曾经是我的翻译客户. 她发来一个合同让我翻译. 看了金额 - 750万.
推掉了,说实话胆子也比较小. 不想为了几百块钱,
惹上几百万的麻烦.
3.
商业社会里就像在玩数字游戏.
上学时我跟小数点前两位数玩耍, 时常为了一个星期几十块的饭钱头疼;
临近毕业时我跟三位数玩, 会认真的考虑一个月只会有几百块收入的工作;
工作后我跟四位数交朋友, 一点一点的积累数字;
现在开始跟五位数打交道, 虽然跟它游戏会更加的困难与难缠.
渐渐的, 我的工作里出现了六位数,很快就会为七位数而围绕.
那么未来,就会有八位数,九位数... 后面的零越多, 我的游戏越复杂.
里世界, 就会渐行渐远.
4.
男同事一天MSN我, 神秘的说想跟我聊一下. 我说行.
他进来我的办公室, 说他想考研, 就可能必须得辞职了.
我很平静, 这早已不像前几次那样很惊诧于这样的突然.
这样的事已经不足以冲击我, 它很微不足道.
我淡淡的问他:"你有没有考虑过, 如果你考不上, 怎么办? 还吃父母吗?"
他愣了一下, 说道还没有考虑过这个问题.
我考了四年, 考不上. 就算现在考上了, 也去不成. 因为,
我只能为生存了.
因为有人离职, 就得有人进来. 这回又要多管一个人. 于是,
又遇到了形形色色的面试者. 始终如一.
5.
不经意里翻出了"Black Biscuit"的CD. 记得16岁生日的那天同学送了一本他们的磁带给我. 他留恋的问我: 听完可以借我听几天吗? 这是绝版了......
于是在大学时就刻意的去淘了这张唯一的专辑的CD. 保护的很好, 下午放进CD机里慢慢聆听.
感觉依旧.
.................
生活里总是出现这样那样的顿点. 就像在人生的航路上有这般那般的转折, 不管选择的转折点是否可能会让我们触到礁石. 既然掉了头, 就勇敢的走下去. 就算, 你是如此胆怯.
记事 毕 [2008.03.29]
生日当晚静静的看着电影吃完同事送的蛋糕. 然后两个人沉默的睡着.
2.
一个住在办公室楼里的女人. 曾经是我的翻译客户. 她发来一个合同让我翻译. 看了金额 - 750万.
推掉了,说实话胆子也比较小. 不想为了几百块钱,
惹上几百万的麻烦.
3.
商业社会里就像在玩数字游戏.
上学时我跟小数点前两位数玩耍, 时常为了一个星期几十块的饭钱头疼;
临近毕业时我跟三位数玩, 会认真的考虑一个月只会有几百块收入的工作;
工作后我跟四位数交朋友, 一点一点的积累数字;
现在开始跟五位数打交道, 虽然跟它游戏会更加的困难与难缠.
渐渐的, 我的工作里出现了六位数,很快就会为七位数而围绕.
那么未来,就会有八位数,九位数... 后面的零越多, 我的游戏越复杂.
里世界, 就会渐行渐远.
4.
男同事一天MSN我, 神秘的说想跟我聊一下. 我说行.
他进来我的办公室, 说他想考研, 就可能必须得辞职了.
我很平静, 这早已不像前几次那样很惊诧于这样的突然.
这样的事已经不足以冲击我, 它很微不足道.
我淡淡的问他:"你有没有考虑过, 如果你考不上, 怎么办? 还吃父母吗?"
他愣了一下, 说道还没有考虑过这个问题.
我考了四年, 考不上. 就算现在考上了, 也去不成. 因为,
我只能为生存了.
因为有人离职, 就得有人进来. 这回又要多管一个人. 于是,
又遇到了形形色色的面试者. 始终如一.
5.
不经意里翻出了"Black Biscuit"的CD. 记得16岁生日的那天同学送了一本他们的磁带给我. 他留恋的问我: 听完可以借我听几天吗? 这是绝版了......
于是在大学时就刻意的去淘了这张唯一的专辑的CD. 保护的很好, 下午放进CD机里慢慢聆听.
感觉依旧.
.................
生活里总是出现这样那样的顿点. 就像在人生的航路上有这般那般的转折, 不管选择的转折点是否可能会让我们触到礁石. 既然掉了头, 就勇敢的走下去. 就算, 你是如此胆怯.
记事 毕 [2008.03.29]
Mar
22
今年是我的本命年, 今天是我的生日.
一晃眼两个年轮已经转过. 不管生活是多么让人烦躁,无论思想是如何可悲矛盾,就算人生永远都是如此进行下去也罢. 自己已经成年了好长一段时间,这里面有恐惧,烦恼,恶梦,痛苦,悲伤,欲望,贪婪及骄扈. 但这颗悲观的心总是能够更坚强的面对惨淡的人生,生活中总有时时刻刻的烦恼与不堪,然而自己的一生却是有限与宝贵的. 尽管绝大多数人认为我的存在对他们而言并不是件好事,认为我的人生痛苦而失败,认为我皆事不懂而自私自利. 但不管如何,二十四年塑造了一个完整而独一无二的自我. 我为此而骄傲.
今天是我的生日,没有任何人会祝我生日快乐. 但我会轻轻的跟自己说声: 祝你生日快乐.
一晃眼两个年轮已经转过. 不管生活是多么让人烦躁,无论思想是如何可悲矛盾,就算人生永远都是如此进行下去也罢. 自己已经成年了好长一段时间,这里面有恐惧,烦恼,恶梦,痛苦,悲伤,欲望,贪婪及骄扈. 但这颗悲观的心总是能够更坚强的面对惨淡的人生,生活中总有时时刻刻的烦恼与不堪,然而自己的一生却是有限与宝贵的. 尽管绝大多数人认为我的存在对他们而言并不是件好事,认为我的人生痛苦而失败,认为我皆事不懂而自私自利. 但不管如何,二十四年塑造了一个完整而独一无二的自我. 我为此而骄傲.
今天是我的生日,没有任何人会祝我生日快乐. 但我会轻轻的跟自己说声: 祝你生日快乐.
Mar
20
Flash Player文件<疯狂的神父>已经在我的硬盘里躺了半年. 之前有看过三十分钟,只觉得好想打磕睡...
今天终于有时间打开它从头看起,却发现比半年前精彩许多. 也许一个人安静的环境真的适合观赏影片呢!
看上去很老套的一部电影,却在极具墨西哥风味的画面与音乐中让人不自觉的露出微笑. 这样的小品,真的可以使人短暂的逃离现实. 直为主角的成长与欢喜而兴奋欣悦呢!
Mar
6
It's not a real 'So Much Water So Close to Home'.
All of these stuff, kindly messed up like a hell.
- By Koloya; On 6th.March, 2008 B.C.
He stepped into the desert, it'd say not a desert without a penny thing. A bed, an icebox, a shitty desk laid up in front of the zig-zag bed. It's hot here, like a desert, or the hell, frankly. No one'd speak here, only whispers. Moreover, god's words comes out like a cat's meow-meow.
A huge squared carton was standing in the middle of the hell. It's a newbie, nothing like this had appeared before then, he was a bit of scared as it was like the Mephostine who cast the first eye on him. He didn't know what the bloody hell had happened, as the cold bronze eyes split into everywhere from the dark yellow carton. He is fucked.
He silenced with his doubt and sat in front of the damn radiational nineteen-inches screen. He was used to the radiation almost, which had caused the holes messed up with his face in everywhere. While he was panic now, not to the holes, not to the radiation or the zig-zag bed seemed to be fucked up. Only the metamorphasized crap standing behind his side - the damned huge carton box.
The hours went-by and by, the sun and moon played after each other and it took a few hours from him by the radiation from the screen, or sun or moon, precisely. Now he got to bed trying to close his eyes from the huge corrugated box, but it was still standing tight, without any movement, with the special smiles by Lord.Mephostine, stared at him without any glance. He was murmured with curse, then he heard the cell phone's sounds saying:
- "If your actions are right, I shall marry you."
- "It all depends, depends on you. If it is real, I shall be making my words."
- "No don't be so grateful, you are giving the chance to me too."
- "So, thanks for the washer you bought."
He closed his eyes, and the corrugated box turned into the dark-black. The image suddenly conversed into the white-shape in front of eyes as a substitution. Now he'd try to forget this magnificent item created by human or by demon himself. While it's like the bloody Lilith standing forever besides him. It's time now.
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请不要用在线翻译搞我的文章. 谢谢.
All of these stuff, kindly messed up like a hell.
- By Koloya; On 6th.March, 2008 B.C.
He stepped into the desert, it'd say not a desert without a penny thing. A bed, an icebox, a shitty desk laid up in front of the zig-zag bed. It's hot here, like a desert, or the hell, frankly. No one'd speak here, only whispers. Moreover, god's words comes out like a cat's meow-meow.
A huge squared carton was standing in the middle of the hell. It's a newbie, nothing like this had appeared before then, he was a bit of scared as it was like the Mephostine who cast the first eye on him. He didn't know what the bloody hell had happened, as the cold bronze eyes split into everywhere from the dark yellow carton. He is fucked.
He silenced with his doubt and sat in front of the damn radiational nineteen-inches screen. He was used to the radiation almost, which had caused the holes messed up with his face in everywhere. While he was panic now, not to the holes, not to the radiation or the zig-zag bed seemed to be fucked up. Only the metamorphasized crap standing behind his side - the damned huge carton box.
The hours went-by and by, the sun and moon played after each other and it took a few hours from him by the radiation from the screen, or sun or moon, precisely. Now he got to bed trying to close his eyes from the huge corrugated box, but it was still standing tight, without any movement, with the special smiles by Lord.Mephostine, stared at him without any glance. He was murmured with curse, then he heard the cell phone's sounds saying:
- "If your actions are right, I shall marry you."
- "It all depends, depends on you. If it is real, I shall be making my words."
- "No don't be so grateful, you are giving the chance to me too."
- "So, thanks for the washer you bought."
He closed his eyes, and the corrugated box turned into the dark-black. The image suddenly conversed into the white-shape in front of eyes as a substitution. Now he'd try to forget this magnificent item created by human or by demon himself. While it's like the bloody Lilith standing forever besides him. It's time now.
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请不要用在线翻译搞我的文章. 谢谢.
Mar
2
Windows Media Player文件很久很久之前,银河系有一个很灿烂的文明叫普罗多文明. 他们的基因遗传技术发达到最后男人和女人可分别孕育后代. 于是不可避免的爆发了男人与女人之间的战争. 普罗多文明的幸存者找到了地球,利用自己的技术发明出地球的人类. 但那之后男人与女人的战争仍在宇宙某处进行着.
几万年过去了... 公元二十一世纪,银河系爆发了侵略战争...
不知道你是否还记得Macross. 那上小学时每个下午6:30必看的<太空堡垒>. 只是简单的对机器人或机器堡垒感兴趣,却让仅十岁的自己为杰克与罗丝,明美之间的三角恋爱而感到彷徨与费解. 在那时的心里,明美光彩照人,十全十美,现在都能看到她的爱情是百分之百的浪漫与美丽. 可很难明白为什么杰克最后选择了罗丝,还是一个死了未婚夫精神稍微有点问题又古板又严肃又凶的女人...
这个选择上的问题,一直困扰了我近十年.
今天中午重温了一遍Macross的剧场版. 方能隐约找到杰克选择的理由. 明美太过于完美,她的存在让人觉得她是不真实的,她不能在现实中永久存在. 她理想化的爱情现在看来却让人感到天真,当她不愿意唱那首歌来救大家,只是因为那首歌词是罗丝找到的,她那时应该很恨罗丝,抢走了自己的杰克... 她哭着说如果世界上只剩杰克与她该多好,其他的人,大家,都应该死去...
这样的爱情,看来很美好. 杰克却的确无法选择她,换了我也一样. 所以杰克给她的一巴掌,也让她清醒的明白,Love,并非是那么简单与仅只浪漫足够.
可对于罗丝,虽然一开始给人的印象又古怪又凶,一点女人味都没有. 然而脆弱的内心却能让杰克心动不已. 杰克自幼孤儿的命运,也注定了他一定会喜欢上这样成熟独立的女性吧... 也许就是在普罗多文明的遗址上,在一个人都不剩下的地球,当罗丝摆上那一套餐具让杰克去吃饭时. 温暖的阳光照在四周漏风但整洁干净的桌布上,这种家的感觉体现出的爱,难怪能比理想主义的爱更为深刻.
所以,杰克选择了罗丝,并且,他说道:"当只有我们两个在地球上的时候,在孤独的地方彷徨前行,我感到非常害怕,幸好身边有你. 当回到Macross在大街上看到大屏幕上明美在歌唱,那个时候我就已经明白了... 我也已经决定了... 现在也是,我想要的,只是你,永远是你陪着我. 就算是这样的我... 就算是... 如果你也能接受的话..."
于是杰克的情感,便如此持久与真实的留在了罗丝身边. 也让人理解他为何会如此选择.
Macross-II跟III部中杰克已不是主角. 我们失落的寻找他的身影,欣慰的看到他做为反叛军的首领,跟妻子罗丝一起在火星基地顽强的对抗敌人... 并且他的未来一定是胜利的... 我们幸福而寂寞的知道了,那随着我们一天天成长的杰克,曾经莽撞而年轻的杰克,已经成长为了一个伟大的人,已经成了一个传奇.
战争的最后阶段,人类,普罗多文明似乎就要被摧毁. 宇宙中传来了一首歌,它让男人与女人都放下武器,慢慢的走在一起仔细聆听这首歌. 文明最后取得了胜利,克罗迪亚问罗丝:"这是一首什么样的歌呀,如此神奇!"
罗丝笑了笑,说道:"这只是首流行歌."
是啊,这只是首流行歌,在几万年前的地球上,那时的人们和现在的人们一样信仰的 - Love Song...
Do You Remember Love?
是的,爱,你还记得吗?
Feb
26
深夜里忍受着这一刀那一剪的CCTV6版而坚持看完了80th. Oscar Award典礼.
最佳原创音乐颁给了爱尔兰的小电影"Once", 男女主角一个拿着破吉它一个弹着钢琴演奏了这首歌,
立即就喜欢上了. 做为80年的电影回顾, 今年的Oscar不咸不淡, 却给人一种怅然若失的感觉.
这也是在钢铁与机器社会中人类对自身困境的无奈表现吧. 无论是个人的, 还是这偌大集体的.
因此唯有在电影中, 人类才能逃避残酷的现实, 憧憬着至善而崇高的情感. 所以, 这首歌赢了.
"Falling Slowly"
Windows Media Player文件
I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along
最佳原创音乐颁给了爱尔兰的小电影"Once", 男女主角一个拿着破吉它一个弹着钢琴演奏了这首歌,
立即就喜欢上了. 做为80年的电影回顾, 今年的Oscar不咸不淡, 却给人一种怅然若失的感觉.
这也是在钢铁与机器社会中人类对自身困境的无奈表现吧. 无论是个人的, 还是这偌大集体的.
因此唯有在电影中, 人类才能逃避残酷的现实, 憧憬着至善而崇高的情感. 所以, 这首歌赢了.
"Falling Slowly"
Windows Media Player文件I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along
